"But I'm nothing more than a puppet—something that somebody created."
The most important thing to note about Xion is her existence — she's not normal, in any sense, and being the way she is causes her a lot of internal struggles. Once she knows who she is, she becomes rather lost, and she's tasked with the decision of what to do with herself, and it's nothing short of a daunting task. It affects her deeply and she becomes caught in a sort of downward spiral, between being lost with herself, and unsure of what to do about it.
She focuses a lot on doing what she believes is right, and once she has her mind set on something, she carries it through to the end. She'll do whatever it takes, to the point of ignoring her own desires in favor of following through with her beliefs. And despite the importance of her friends, she'll still put her goals above even their feelings. Because of this, she comes off as rather stubborn, tending to argue her side often and not back down. When Axel comes to retrieve her, he complains about how "everybody thinks they're right" and how they're going to destroy her, and Xion replies with "this is right", ready to deal with what she already knows will happen. Her decision to be destroyed is absolutely right in her mind, and she's accepted that. And she even goes on to fight him for her freedom to do what she's chosen to do, as much as it hurts.
"I'm sorry, but... I can't go with you. It's my friends—they need me. And I need them, too."
Her friends create part of her internal struggle with deciding what to do with herself. She wants nothing more than to remain with them, but she comes to realize she can't, and accepts the fact that she has to disappear and return to Sora. Although, she starts out being hesitant with this resolve, and has trouble truly separating herself from them in the beginning. When she's first running away, she still can't stop herself from looking on at them from a distance, wanting so badly to return. And when she's discussing her situation with Riku (that she needs to be destroyed so Sora can wake up), telling him she can't go with him because of her friends is her initial response to the situation. She knows her friends need her, and she doesn't want to worry or upset them. Of course, after thinking on it longer, she makes the decision to disappear.
She can be very defensive and easily angered when it comes to her abilities and choices — she's ... fragile, generally. Along with defending her choices for as long as she needs to (even against the most important people to her), she'll become visibly upset and angered when her abilities are criticized. When Riku tells her her keyblade is a sham, she quickly and angrily argues back, telling him it's not and that he's the sham. And this scene sits in her mind for a while even after it's already happened.
"Because I'm useless?"
She has some terrible self esteem issues in general, actually. Thanks to the less than ideal way she's treated and spoken about by some of the other Organization members, especially Saix, in combination with what she knows about herself, she tends to think of herself badly and put herself last. She'll have small outbursts, such as when she immediately asks Riku if he hates her for keeping his friend from him, and she'll go so far as to even believe she's useless at times (and voice this belief, because she believes it's what others truly think). Her friends can't even help her much with this, as happy as it makes her to be around them. They're sort of like a light in the darkness for her, but she tends to think to herself about how she's treated and what she needs to do, and she can be very independent when she acts on things. That's not to say she doesn't need guidance or help from others, too, sometimes.
Being a member of the Organization, and only really alive for a short period of time, she's not very knowledgeable about a lot of things, and often needs to ask others for help when it comes to things she doesn't understand or know about. She can be curious because of this, and will go out of her way to seek information about things that are important to her (such as, of course, her own existence). Despite all this, she can be rather mature.
She's a quiet, shy girl, and she only really speaks when it's necessary. Her friends are really the only people she can speak to at length with and open up to, and the only other times other than them that she's seen talking more than usual is when it's with Riku or Namine, and both of those people she has her reasons with (they're both important for her to achieve her goal and get to know what's happening a little more). But most of the time, she doesn't speak much — she acts on her own a lot, quietly.
But her short life isn't all bad things — like stated before, her friends are like her light in the dark, and they're really the only enjoyable experiences she even has. She smiles when she's with them, and cherishes her time with them more than anything else. She places a good amount of trust in them, and the difficulty she has with leaving them in order to do what's right to her says a lot about how much she cares about them. She does what she can for her friends, trying her best to keep them from any sort of pain, though of course there's only so far she can go with that considering her desire to do what's right and disappear. But in the end, she needs her friends as much as they need her, and even though they won't remember her, she finds some sort of solace in the fact that their memories will still live on in Sora.
If there's anything she can't bear to lose, it's her friends and the memories she has with them.
In short, she's quite the sad girl with some pretty intense existence issues going on and low self esteem to go with it. She has a strong sense of justice and a great deal of belief in her choices. She's rather independent-minded, trying her best to deal with and take care of her issues on her own, and because of the things she does to deal with everything, she tends to get into quite a bit of mischief. But she always keeps her friends in her mind, and no matter what happens to her, they'll remain there.
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The most important thing to note about Xion is her existence — she's not normal, in any sense, and being the way she is causes her a lot of internal struggles. Once she knows who she is, she becomes rather lost, and she's tasked with the decision of what to do with herself, and it's nothing short of a daunting task. It affects her deeply and she becomes caught in a sort of downward spiral, between being lost with herself, and unsure of what to do about it.
She focuses a lot on doing what she believes is right, and once she has her mind set on something, she carries it through to the end. She'll do whatever it takes, to the point of ignoring her own desires in favor of following through with her beliefs. And despite the importance of her friends, she'll still put her goals above even their feelings. Because of this, she comes off as rather stubborn, tending to argue her side often and not back down. When Axel comes to retrieve her, he complains about how "everybody thinks they're right" and how they're going to destroy her, and Xion replies with "this is right", ready to deal with what she already knows will happen. Her decision to be destroyed is absolutely right in her mind, and she's accepted that. And she even goes on to fight him for her freedom to do what she's chosen to do, as much as it hurts.
Her friends create part of her internal struggle with deciding what to do with herself. She wants nothing more than to remain with them, but she comes to realize she can't, and accepts the fact that she has to disappear and return to Sora. Although, she starts out being hesitant with this resolve, and has trouble truly separating herself from them in the beginning. When she's first running away, she still can't stop herself from looking on at them from a distance, wanting so badly to return. And when she's discussing her situation with Riku (that she needs to be destroyed so Sora can wake up), telling him she can't go with him because of her friends is her initial response to the situation. She knows her friends need her, and she doesn't want to worry or upset them. Of course, after thinking on it longer, she makes the decision to disappear.
She can be very defensive and easily angered when it comes to her abilities and choices — she's ... fragile, generally. Along with defending her choices for as long as she needs to (even against the most important people to her), she'll become visibly upset and angered when her abilities are criticized. When Riku tells her her keyblade is a sham, she quickly and angrily argues back, telling him it's not and that he's the sham. And this scene sits in her mind for a while even after it's already happened.
She has some terrible self esteem issues in general, actually. Thanks to the less than ideal way she's treated and spoken about by some of the other Organization members, especially Saix, in combination with what she knows about herself, she tends to think of herself badly and put herself last. She'll have small outbursts, such as when she immediately asks Riku if he hates her for keeping his friend from him, and she'll go so far as to even believe she's useless at times (and voice this belief, because she believes it's what others truly think). Her friends can't even help her much with this, as happy as it makes her to be around them. They're sort of like a light in the darkness for her, but she tends to think to herself about how she's treated and what she needs to do, and she can be very independent when she acts on things. That's not to say she doesn't need guidance or help from others, too, sometimes.
Being a member of the Organization, and only really alive for a short period of time, she's not very knowledgeable about a lot of things, and often needs to ask others for help when it comes to things she doesn't understand or know about. She can be curious because of this, and will go out of her way to seek information about things that are important to her (such as, of course, her own existence). Despite all this, she can be rather mature.
She's a quiet, shy girl, and she only really speaks when it's necessary. Her friends are really the only people she can speak to at length with and open up to, and the only other times other than them that she's seen talking more than usual is when it's with Riku or Namine, and both of those people she has her reasons with (they're both important for her to achieve her goal and get to know what's happening a little more). But most of the time, she doesn't speak much — she acts on her own a lot, quietly.
But her short life isn't all bad things — like stated before, her friends are like her light in the dark, and they're really the only enjoyable experiences she even has. She smiles when she's with them, and cherishes her time with them more than anything else. She places a good amount of trust in them, and the difficulty she has with leaving them in order to do what's right to her says a lot about how much she cares about them. She does what she can for her friends, trying her best to keep them from any sort of pain, though of course there's only so far she can go with that considering her desire to do what's right and disappear. But in the end, she needs her friends as much as they need her, and even though they won't remember her, she finds some sort of solace in the fact that their memories will still live on in Sora.
If there's anything she can't bear to lose, it's her friends and the memories she has with them.
In short, she's quite the sad girl with some pretty intense existence issues going on and low self esteem to go with it. She has a strong sense of justice and a great deal of belief in her choices. She's rather independent-minded, trying her best to deal with and take care of her issues on her own, and because of the things she does to deal with everything, she tends to get into quite a bit of mischief. But she always keeps her friends in her mind, and no matter what happens to her, they'll remain there.