Personality:
Helios is an eccentric man on first appearances. He’s quite friendly and he'll usually open up and speak with anyone if given the chance. However the amount of information he'll divulge to any one individual is hard to say. He works with age groups from high school and onward...as you can imagine not many of his students are teenagers at all. The fact that he works with mythical beings far wiser than himself has made him a bit too wise and a bit too knowledgeable for his own good. Also his time studying psychology has also made him genuinely knowledgeable about people's states of mind, but he doesn't really default to that knowledge and he hasn't put it to use in a rather long time. The basics are there but the fundamental teachings he acquired through college are lost to an extent. He does however have a very bad way with technology and is completely oblivious to it at times. Something like how geniuses lack all common sense only you can apply Helios with technology.
He is the headmaster of a highly prodigious school for humans and mythical creatures. Helios’s dream is solely embedded into this school and he becomes absorbed and focused on it entirely. He sacrificed too to not continue on with his aspirations, it is also for Elise’s sake that he does this and hopes to see his and her dreams come to fruition.
Whimsical, open-minded, carefree and wise for a man his age, being only 32, Helios is an expert in his field: Folklores. He’s seen things most humans could only dream about and it was, is, his goal to allow humans and myths to coexist together. Despite his inner mindset of being rather pained and hurt Helios appears outwardly normal to most. His whimsical nature and absentmindedness stem from his own coping methods. Keeping himself busy and putting on a face of happiness in front of others to make them not worry about him is what Helios typical defaults to when it comes to strangers and people he doesn't know. However inwardly he is quite a mess but he has learned how to mask it and make it so that many people would hardly ever even think that he's been abused in the past this and Helios' self-destructive personality is the main reason for this.
He has then been exposed to many supernatural and inhuman events dangerous and harmless so such things will not be as taxing or as shocking to him as most would think, actually he might find them to be interesting and amazing in all honesty. One thing that really makes him tense though is violence. Helios despise violence, with good reason, and he never really jumps to the conclusion of having to use his powers, and most of the time he tries to settle disputes with reason and talking out the differences first. He’s seen far too much violence in his life and he hates it when enemies and friends alike are hurt.
Then there is also his serious side. Which from time to time you can and will see when there are problems or crises that need to be dealt with. He can also be somewhat of a joker and he does have a playful side to him as well. Teasing Max or people he’s close with for example, even making terrible jokes he knows aren’t funny.
He tends to get very excited about food and his ever apparent sweet tooth isn't proof of this, there's also the fact that he gets easily excited over some of the most pointless things especially holidays like Halloween and Christmas.
His extreme thirst for knowledge and curiosity about all things supernatural or weird helps fuel his absentminded, eccentric, outward appearance. There really isn’t anything he wouldn’t want to learn when it comes to other cultures and this is also fueled by his ever apparent open-minded personality.
Helios is, unfortunately, also plagued with a myriad of internal problems. The psychological trauma inflicted upon him in the younger years of his life made him very hard to get close to, but Varron, Elise and even in a sense Ra has as well. He will befriend those around him, and talk to them as if they were his own. But it is few and far between the people who he speaks to about his abuse and the past that riddles the darker aspects of his life. Helios also is all too willing to sacrifice himself for others wellbeing, never taking into account his own weaknesses and limits, which is a major and dangerous flaw in his personality. He often sees himself as undeserving when it comes to others friendships and wanting to help him, which is why he keeps people at a distance and is often surprised when people ask about his healthy or wellbeing. Nero ingraining the fact that he killed his own soul mate and could quite possibly kill anyone who ever got close to him again only fueled Helios’ self-destructive personality.
His years spent with his brother being abused and harmed by someone who was his own blood; and this has caused him to lose faith in himself and anyone who tried to get close to him. Plagued with multiple defined phobias such as: aphephobia and avoiding being alone in darkened rooms Helios is anything but mentally solid. But he knows what his own mental demeanor and make-up is like and instead of talking about his problems he knows how to hide them very well. It’s not until when Elise, his fiancée, comes into his life that those prominent debilitating fears dissipate for a short time. She helped him get over his speech impediment, stammering, something caused by Nero along with the multiple phobias. By going with him to a speech therapist and working with Helios as well to get his stammering to a controlled level. Elise, being his true light, essentially helped Helios recover from many of his fears and even emboldened him to a point where he could safely say he was…confident in himself. But the stammer does come back from time to time, especially since Elise’s death, when situations he’s in are very stressful or he is simply very uncomfortable in them.
It was soon after Elise’s death that many of his symptoms returned along with now a debilitating belief of self-doubt. To accompany that he also has some form of survivor’s guilt which is a mental condition where the survivor of a traumatic event blames themselves for the death of someone close to them. In this case it's Helios blaming himself for Elise’s death. He mostly deals with this by setting up the academy and trying to help people to a stunning degree by putting in as much as he can into doing whatever possible for them. His absentmindedness and whimsical nature were both products of a way for him to cope and that's simply become a method of coping for him in the future.
Also his lack of interest in any other female is due to the fact that Elise was his undeniable soul mate and he lost all of those romantic feelings for the opposite sex. This paints the picture of him not wanting to be in another relationship, and he's something of a lonely man; but also fueling this is his thought process of not being deserving of such things after killing Elise. You could say he’s emotionally apathetic when it comes to the idea of sex and romance in general, albeit he knows when females are hitting on him and thus this makes him awkward usually because he can't exactly explain his situation to people without lying outright.
In regards to his symptoms; they are not as overpowering as before, due to the help of mostly Elise, Varron and Ra, but never has Helios gone to a psychologist for his problems directly and therefore he still sometimes lapses into shaking, flinching (when people get close or try to touch him especially at his tension points: arms, wrists and shoulders), and being plagued by nightmares about the night of Elise’s death. Mere thoughts or visions can and will make them resurface at full force.
It is really only in the presence of his older brother that he shows any sort of recollection or continuity of these fears. More often than not he is normal and hardly feels the need to tell anyone about his problems mainly because he feels himself to be a burden. Because of past abuse, both mental and physical, Helios never really attributes himself to being anything great even though offhandedly he knows he’s an amazingly powerful magician; he’ll simply brush it off as being somewhat good but that there are others out there who are better. Safe to say one of the most modest people you’ll ever meet.
However Helios' time in Luceti has changed him quite drastically. He no longer fears forming friendships with people around him and he no longer denies himself some forms of comfort, which come from having people close. Also touching, which has been a very difficult task for him to do given his cold skin and being called a monster for having it also because of the physical abuse he endured, he has been able to actually give those he's close with hugs or even offer hands to help people when they needed it. It's a milestone in his personality really that he finally trusts people who are close enough to him to be able to give and receive (albeit with still some flinching, tentativeness and minor twitches here or there) such actions.
Helios most importantly has learned how to open up and talk to people about his problems and his past. He no longer hides his emotions when he has his bad days and he’s able to talk more about what’s bothering him instead of just bottling it up inside him. He’s made so much progress that he’s even told people about Elise and two or three people about Nero. This is a clear sign that Helios has grown and made significant headway in his respective burdens. Burdens which he would normally carry by himself but since Luceti has allowed people to get close enough so that they too may help him up when it gets too much to bear. There's also the fact that normally he would never mention magic, mythica or even being able to use such things because in his own world such knowledge would likely get him killed or possibly thrown into an asylum. But with Luceti he's learned quickly that most, if not all, people are used to magic and that he can talk about such things without need to worry.
Also Luceti has given Helios a more realistic mindset towards such things like being taken to another world with no explanation. He obviously will not question it since Luceti has proven a very good introduction into being pulled to other worlds and he honestly won't mind in the least and will naturally be curious, but he will also be more cautious. Helios usually tried to be brightly optimistic about the outcomes to the crazy events that occurred in his own world and in Luceti but such thought process has hit him hard. After all the hardships he's been through in his own world and in Luceti it's hard to keep a bright, optimistic mindset, but Helios keeps trucking because he knows that he needs to be strong for those around him and those he cares about but also for himself as well.
Luceti, and his relationship with Max within Luceti has also given Helios a new start to life. The fact that he is in a relationship with another person, and a man of all things, is a very stark contrast to the man who arrived in Luceti 3 years ago. Helios has learned and known that Elise would never hate him for trying to find happiness and he found happiness in another man, Max. His love for her is unconditional and will never disappear, but he knows that if he never tries to be happy again he never will be. Helios will never, ever, forget Elise but for once in his life he actually believes himself to have the right to be happy. After giving people second chances so many times in his life he can finally accept and grant himself the second chance that he deserved and needed to regain what he's lost all those years in mourning. He still stumbles along the way, as all people in new experience are wont to do. But he's making steady progress in being more happy and content with who he is and letting the past lie, but also not forgetting it either. Helios doesn’t see himself as a man who no longer deserves happiness, but a man who can bring another person happiness as well as bring it to himself and not feel guilt over it. He's determined and proactive in the relationship hoping to not make the same mistakes twice.