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Emma Swan ([personal profile] sheriffing) wrote in [personal profile] havenmods 2014-06-17 07:49 pm (UTC)

Although she’s a little more receptive to it than she was before, Emma isn’t a big fan of destiny. She believes that people can change the course of their lives, even from evil to good. A good example of this is when she supports Regina, wanting the woman to become worthy of Henry instead of remaining as the evil queen. This could just be seen as her stubborn refusal to accept the world the way it is and the roles they’re all expected to play, but it seems like there might be more to it than that. Emma has hope when she probably shouldn’t, and has been let down enough times to expect to be disappointed. Her own evolution has made her want to support others, even if there’s the possibility that she’ll eventually come to regret it.

It's difficult for Emma to let her guard down around others, and she comes off as being very abrasive at times. She's street-smart and very clever, although sometimes she'll miss what is right in front of her in favor of chasing down whatever it is she has her mind set on. It was especially difficult for August to deal with her during the curse, because as he dedicated precious time to setting up elaborate schemes to get her to believe, she would shut them down with whatever excuses she wanted to buy into. She's tough in a lot of aspects; won't back down from a fight, won't allow anyone around her to be bullied, and she won't let anyone convince her to do what goes against her instincts. In spite of all of this, there are some ways in which she is surprisingly fragile.

Like most people, what Emma really wants is love. She wants someone to believe in her, to stand by her, and to trust her. The first instances of that in canon were Mary Margaret and Henry, who both reached out to her when she was new in Storybrooke. She carries a lot of guilt for not believing Henry about the curse and confessed to Mary Margaret that as his mother, she should have believed him.

Her idea of what a parent should be tends to based on unrealistically high expectations because for most of her life, she never had a steady parental figure. Her goal with Henry seems to be to become the parent she wishes she had had. She thinks she should have believed Henry about the curse, that she should be honest with him as much as she can, and even promised to never lie to him again (after lying to him about his father). In all that she does, she’s always committed to making the best choice for him.

Emma wants Henry to have the best life possible, and also wants a simple, normal life for herself. Everyone in Storybrooke would like her to settle there again, and it's been a struggle for Emma to understand that Storybrooke is where she belongs when it's also a struggle just to keep everyone alive and happy there.

There's nothing more important to Emma than her son, and she loves him unconditionally. After months of hearing Henry talk about it, the curse in Storybrooke was broken because of her son being her 'true' love and her opening her heart to him. There are times when she worries about whether or not she is capable of being the mother Henry needs, but Emma will do anything for him - even if it means finding the strength to believe in the Dark Curse or running around through the jungles of Neverland.

At this point in her canon, Emma is finally settling into the idea of Storybrooke being her home. She has two sets of memories in her head; her real, complicated life as a lost girl, and the fake memories Regina gave them of a life in which she never gave Henry up. She’s tempted by the one in which she feels she always did right by Henry, even if only a year of it was real, but the easier path isn't quite right to her. Neal always said that she would know that she had a home if she missed it when she went away. When she's stuck in the Enchanted Forest, she finally misses Storybrooke and her family there.

Early on, Regina told Emma that she wasn't threatened by her presence in Storybrooke because the woman had never stayed in one place for very long. It's true; when Emma was young, she moved around a lot and didn't allow herself to become tied down to anything or anyone. She planned to go to Tallahassee and settle down with Neal, and when he betrayed her, she ended up in prison. Eventually Emma did go to Tallahassee, and spent two years there; presumably waiting for him. However, we're told that Tallahassee is the place where Emma stayed the longest, and that she spent most of her time moving around, settling for one-night stands and closing herself off from attachments. Having a place where she feels at home and is emotionally invested means the world to her, but having home exist as a permanent place where all of her loved ones are together is a happy ending that she never expected to find for herself.

Emma believes that love is strength, and said as much to Cora when protecting Mary Margaret from her when she was in danger. Love has made her braver and more vulnerable. She now seems to accept affection and offer hugs to the people she cares about. She will take risks for others, although sometimes being impulsive is more of a curse than a blessing. When Mulan and Aurora threatened Mary Margaret, Emma fired off a gun to make a point. Instead of threatening them, she ended up alerting ogres to their presence and needed Mary Margaret to rescue her. She often dives in headfirst when she is worried about someone, and it's only after she screws up that she slows down and tries to think things through.

To her son, Emma is the hero of the story, meant to save them all. For her, the idea of being a savior was initially too much. It was a destiny too big for someone who spent her whole life believing that she was nothing special. Later, she began to wonder if being the prophesied savior was the same thing as being a pawn in the game of good and evil. She seems encouraged by being able to use her magic to help others, and is slowly growing more comfortable with what she is. Emma tries so hard to be one of the good guys, and has a very clear sense of right and wrong, but it's hard for her to see her true potential. When she does bring up her "savior" title, it's usually either to discuss the burden of being the savior (she isn't guaranteed happiness, and she never gets a day off), or to express her guilt because she believes she hasn't done enough to bring back everyone's happy endings. Right now, she believes that her magic still isn't working after willingly giving it up to save Killian.

Based on the episode I'm taking her from, Emma is going to be furious to stuck in yet another land that separates her from her family. And when Emma is angry she is loud, rude, and could easily get violent. She is never one to shy away from confrontation, particularly where Storybrooke villains are concerned. When Regina tried to run her out of town, Emma cut down a section of one of Regina's apple trees to make a point. She did this in broad daylight, and stormed off after arguing with Regina. Even when arguing with Mr. Gold, she threatens violence and doesn't back down when he seems about ready to show her his favorite use for his cane. Anytime someone gets Emma's temper up, it can get ugly pretty quickly.

She might sound scary, but Emma is someone who anyone would want on their side if they needed help. As soon as she arrived in Storybrooke, she started doing what she could to help its inhabitants. She helped track down a coma patient (who happened to be her dad), reunited families, and even made a deal with Mr. Gold to get Cinderella out of hers. If someone needs her, she will do everything in her power to save them, whether it's her friend or her enemy. She said once that she wanted to show her son that good can win, and while Emma doesn't always 'win', she does continue to fight for everyone's safety and happiness.

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