Name: Lyan Contact Info: bwahahah@gmail.com or pm this journal Other Characters Played: N/A Preferred Apartment: with Dean Winchester, if at all possible.
Character Name: Sam Winchester Canon: Supernatural Canon Point: 1x18 Background/History: one and two Personality: Sam's personality is deeply defined by several key events that shaped his life and his psyche. When Sam was only six months old, a demon named Azazel, or the yellow-eyed demon, came into his nursery and fed him his blood. Sam's mother, Mary, interrupted the demon and was murdered for it. That murder sent the Winchesters on a lifelong quest for vengeance. Sam's father moved them from place to place, living in cheap motels on credit card frauds. Until he was eight years old, Sam was told that his mother had died in a car accident and that his father was a traveling salesman, but being a bright and naturally curious child he found that hard to believe and read his father's journal that explained all the monstrosities he had faced. Since his father – John – was never around he confronted his older brother Dean about it, but being raised the way he had, even at that young age his reaction to learning that monsters are real was to go to bed early for the night and hide his tears; Winchester men were never big on sharing their emotions. However Sam never quite fit in with his family. He always felt like an outsider looking in, both out in the world of normal people, where he wasn't allowed to remain for longer than his father's local hunts took place but always tried to make friends in these short escapades to normality, and with his own family where he felt trapped; bound to them by the murder of a mother he didn't even remember. In a choice between the two in the past and in his current canon point, Sam prefers normality, and struggles to achieve it. Since he couldn't attend a regular school he assigned himself his own reading lists, he got into Stanford and fought with his father to go to school despite the fact he was practically disowned for it. Sam has a selfish way of seeing the world; he didn't look right or left to try to understand his family's motivations, the pain and fears his father dealt with, but instead only concentrated on the wrongs done to him. He acted his age, as opposed to his older brother who spent his life putting his family first. At school he made friends, met a girl he was planning to marry – Jessica – and had an interview scheduled for law school. He was all set to live a regular life cut away from his family and their gruesome line of work. However, Jessica's murder changed all that.
After Jessica was murdered, Sam saw one thing and one thing only before his eyes – revenge. He became blinded by it, and could think only of finding his father so that he could join him on the hunt for the yellow eyed demon. He was willing to ignore other people in need of help on the way, with Dean serving as his sole anchor to reality outside his narrow worldview. He became almost consumed with rage and guilt – ready to sacrifice himself in a heartbeat for the sake of his vengeance, ready to snap at people for not understanding what lurked in the dark and more than anything, ready to struggle against his father every step of the way because he blames him for the life he and his brother lead and vicariously deep down although he knows it's irrational, that life led to Jessica's murder. It was easy for Sam to resent his father, because they had always butted heads, probably because the two were so alike – very opinionated, very stubborn, and very easily obsessed. Sam is the sort of man who always thinks he knows the answer; he's used to being the golden boy, the genius, which is why it frustrates him so deeply when he's being overruled, ignored or kept out of the loop. That mindset also leads him to believe that no one can understand him, that he can't confide certain things even in Dean. Secrecy has always been a part of Sam's nature, but it grows with canon; the more questionable the things he dabbles with are the more jealous he is of his privacy. Despite all his guilt, he's always known what he's worth, what he brings to the table, and the more he's sheltered, the more he struggles against it. He has very little patience for nonsense and it's for a reason that Dean fondly calls him 'bitch'.
Hunting with Dean, Sam found his people skills extremely handy – Dean would joke that with his "puppy face" Sam could get people to believe anything. In truth Sam has a way of connecting with people, empathizing with them and gaining their trust – deep down, he's a genuine nice guy and that trait flows through. Additionally, until the addition of Bobby to the show the burden of research fell mostly on Sam's shoulders, however being a studious person by nature he took to it immediately and efficiently. Sam and Dean's main way of coping with the horrors they've witnessed is having a healthy sense of humor, usually directed at each other. Sam's humor is mostly sarcastic and somewhat childish – pranks such as gluing Dean's hand to his beer bottle crack him up.
Jessica's murder brought, in addition to the obvious horror and regression to hunting, a new dimension of horror into Sam's life – shortly before her death he began having nightmares about her very murder which then played out before his eyes. Sam blamed himself for not believing his vision – not standing by her side when she needed him to protect her. For that reason he also became deeply obsessed with those visions – desperate to save whoever they showed him, desperate to avoid another repeat of Jessica. These visions led him to Max – a boy who shared a different version of his own story – his mother was murdered by the yellow eyed demon in his nursery at the age of 6 months after he was given demon's blood – although of that detail he was yet unaware – and had gained psychic abilities due to it that began exactly when Sam's visions had. The encounter with Max terrified and shocked Sam, and his obsession and fear of his own abilities grew tremendously because Max had taken his own abilities to the darkest of places and Sam was horrified of ending up the same way. He desperately tried to save Max partly because his moral code wouldn't let him abandon a human being – Sam came back into hunting after a break of two years which he had spent in a normal surrounding; that and his natural aversion to the hunter's lifestyle made him much softer than most hunters – more humane - and partly because if he saw Max as a monster, he had to see himself as a monster and he needed to believe that he could be saved, that he could be a hero and not a monster.
At the end of season one, the Winchesters believed they closed in on the yellow eyed demon, and Sam believed that his life as a hunter was approaching its end ("Dean, we are a family. I'd do anything for you. But things will never be the way they were before….I don't want them to be. I'm not gonna live this life forever. Dean when this is all over, you're gonna have to let me go my own way." –season 1 episode 16), but as they closed in on him later (shortly after my chosen canon point, but it demonstrates the depth of Sam's desperation) Dean had to physically restrain Sam from running into a burning building and committing suicide in an attempt to kill the demon. Sam's obsession with killing the demon outweighed any form of reason in his mind. At that point however Dean managed to get through to him and when the demon possessed their father Sam didn't shoot him despite the fact the man had begged him to because he had come around to Dean's point of view – that there was something more important than revenge – and that was family. Dean is the one man capable of bringing Sam back from his own inner darkness, but even he is faced with much resistance from Sam; the younger Winchester always struggled with keeping his horrors to himself, only divulging them to his brother when he had absolutely no other choice.
Sam is methodical and organized, both traits that help him immensely with his research. That point is best demonstrated in episode 3x11 because he was left on his own; his organization is usually lost behind Dean's clutter otherwise. In that episode, Sam spends his days running down every possible lead one by one. He remembers every little supposedly insignificant detail in the time loop he was trapped in from the exact words Dean used to taunt him to the flavor of syrup the man at the bar puts on his pancakes. When he was pulled out of the loop into a life without Dean, Sam's life narrowed into a methodical hunt in which there was no room for social connections or distractions. His motel rooms were meticulous, clean and organized, and so was the arsenal in his trunk. Sam is very jealous of his privacy, his few possessions and their organization; he and Dean share everything but he cannot stand it when his brother's mess invades his personal space.
Abilities/Powers: Supernaturally speaking, when Sam was 6 months old he was given demon's blood, which enables him to access some psychic abilities. At this point in canon all he´s able to do is be the passive receiver of futuristic visions concerning the demon whose blood he drank, or more precisely, his victims, and once he was able to telekinetically move a closet that had him locked in, however that has been a very desperate situation and although he found himself in plenty of other desperate situations since, he has never been able to recreate that feat. The demon's blood also made him immune to the psychic attacks of demons and other people who were given demon's blood like himself, and able to perceive the presence of other supernatural entities like ghosts and poltergeists at times. Later in canon he learns to do many other things but they are connected to the consumption of more demon's blood which shouldn't be of importance in game however to detail it- he became able to exorcise and even kill demons with his mind, as well as amplify his telekinetic abilities.
Naturally speaking, Sam was raised as a hunter. He´s learned how to defend himself probably since he was old enough to walk, in a range of techniques from empty hand combat to the handling of fire arms and a verity of cold weapons; knives, axes, ect. After rejoining the family business with his brother Dean, Sam improved those skills greatly; the first half of season 1 is mostly made out of Sam getting caught and Dean rescuing him, but with time he improves and even saves Dean a few times. These skills include Latin spells, the painting of Devil's Traps and the use of talismans, however they are all a matter of knowledge rather than supernatural ability – anyone can learn to use them; Sam simply has a few memorized, mostly the devil's trap and exorcism spells.
Hunting however requires more than mere fighting skills, therefore Sam is also an expert tracker and researcher. It usually falls on him, especially at the beginning of canon, to find jobs and discover which monster lurked in the dark. In addition, hunters of the supernatural play a double role of both hunters and prey- to the very things they hunt, to law enforcers, and at times even to other hunters, therefore Sam has also learned how to make himself scarce. He´s an excellent hacker, he knows how to commit credit card frauds to procure finances, how to fake ids, how to break and enter, pick locks and so on and so forth. And of course, Sam is an extraordinary liar, passing himself as a priest, FBI agent, or whatever the job requires him to be.
Performing some basic medical procedures is also crucial knowledge for hunters; sanitation, pulling bullets out of wounds, sewing wounds, applied pressure in the right spots, bandaging, and all forms of first aid.
Sample Entry Two: Sam didn't remember falling asleep, and that was enough to sound the alarm in his head. And speaking of his head, it felt like it was about to explode. Could it be a side effect of the Shtriga's attack? It did drain some of his 'life force', so maybe he should have expected this…did he faint? His hand reached up to rub his temples and pinch the bridge of his nose. A deep breath, and another…this wasn't working, he needed an aspirin.
"Dean?" He croaked out, his eyes still shut, expecting his brother to be somewhere around. When moments passed with no reply, annoyance struck roots in his mind. If he left him at some motel to suffer through this on his own so he could go out and get laid there will be a bitchy hell to pay. "Dean?" he tried again, pulling himself upwards, his eyes fluttering open.
What he saw before him made him jump upright in bed. What the hell is this. This wasn't like any motel he and Dean ever crashed at; for one there were way too many damn beds. They always got private rooms, in their line of work privacy's a necessity, they don't even let the maids go in their rooms, so the last thing they'll ever do is rent a place with four other people! There had to be an explanation for this, and when your last name is Winchester that explanation could be either of the following two – 1. Dean thinks he's funny again. 2. Something evil is going on.
He jumped off his bed, ignoring the constant thumping of his brain complaining about having to function in these conditions, and made his way to the nearest bed. The man lying in it was unfamiliar to him, and as far as he knew Dean had no friends to call on to prank him. Even if he did go to the trouble of speaking to men outside the hunting game, he definitely wouldn't make a good enough impression to convince them to help him with this. No, this was way too elaborate to be one of Dean's schemes, the guy is a jerk but he's not that creative – if he woke up bald or itching he could blame his brother but as it stands – it seemed about time to get really worried. So the reasonable conclusion seemed to be that these other people were brought here just like himself. Are they captive? Can they leave? And where the hell is Dean – was he somewhere out there or was he tearing up a town trying to find him? First thing first, he had to ascertain these people's condition, so he leaned down over the bed and placed his hand on the shoulder of the man occupying it, shaking him lightly.
Sam Winchester | Supernatural | Reserved
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Other Characters Played: N/A
Preferred Apartment: with Dean Winchester, if at all possible.
Character Name: Sam Winchester
Canon: Supernatural
Canon Point: 1x18
Background/History: one and two
Personality: Sam's personality is deeply defined by several key events that shaped his life and his psyche. When Sam was only six months old, a demon named Azazel, or the yellow-eyed demon, came into his nursery and fed him his blood. Sam's mother, Mary, interrupted the demon and was murdered for it. That murder sent the Winchesters on a lifelong quest for vengeance. Sam's father moved them from place to place, living in cheap motels on credit card frauds. Until he was eight years old, Sam was told that his mother had died in a car accident and that his father was a traveling salesman, but being a bright and naturally curious child he found that hard to believe and read his father's journal that explained all the monstrosities he had faced. Since his father – John – was never around he confronted his older brother Dean about it, but being raised the way he had, even at that young age his reaction to learning that monsters are real was to go to bed early for the night and hide his tears; Winchester men were never big on sharing their emotions. However Sam never quite fit in with his family. He always felt like an outsider looking in, both out in the world of normal people, where he wasn't allowed to remain for longer than his father's local hunts took place but always tried to make friends in these short escapades to normality, and with his own family where he felt trapped; bound to them by the murder of a mother he didn't even remember. In a choice between the two in the past and in his current canon point, Sam prefers normality, and struggles to achieve it. Since he couldn't attend a regular school he assigned himself his own reading lists, he got into Stanford and fought with his father to go to school despite the fact he was practically disowned for it. Sam has a selfish way of seeing the world; he didn't look right or left to try to understand his family's motivations, the pain and fears his father dealt with, but instead only concentrated on the wrongs done to him. He acted his age, as opposed to his older brother who spent his life putting his family first. At school he made friends, met a girl he was planning to marry – Jessica – and had an interview scheduled for law school. He was all set to live a regular life cut away from his family and their gruesome line of work. However, Jessica's murder changed all that.
After Jessica was murdered, Sam saw one thing and one thing only before his eyes – revenge. He became blinded by it, and could think only of finding his father so that he could join him on the hunt for the yellow eyed demon. He was willing to ignore other people in need of help on the way, with Dean serving as his sole anchor to reality outside his narrow worldview. He became almost consumed with rage and guilt – ready to sacrifice himself in a heartbeat for the sake of his vengeance, ready to snap at people for not understanding what lurked in the dark and more than anything, ready to struggle against his father every step of the way because he blames him for the life he and his brother lead and vicariously deep down although he knows it's irrational, that life led to Jessica's murder. It was easy for Sam to resent his father, because they had always butted heads, probably because the two were so alike – very opinionated, very stubborn, and very easily obsessed. Sam is the sort of man who always thinks he knows the answer; he's used to being the golden boy, the genius, which is why it frustrates him so deeply when he's being overruled, ignored or kept out of the loop. That mindset also leads him to believe that no one can understand him, that he can't confide certain things even in Dean. Secrecy has always been a part of Sam's nature, but it grows with canon; the more questionable the things he dabbles with are the more jealous he is of his privacy. Despite all his guilt, he's always known what he's worth, what he brings to the table, and the more he's sheltered, the more he struggles against it. He has very little patience for nonsense and it's for a reason that Dean fondly calls him 'bitch'.
Hunting with Dean, Sam found his people skills extremely handy – Dean would joke that with his "puppy face" Sam could get people to believe anything. In truth Sam has a way of connecting with people, empathizing with them and gaining their trust – deep down, he's a genuine nice guy and that trait flows through. Additionally, until the addition of Bobby to the show the burden of research fell mostly on Sam's shoulders, however being a studious person by nature he took to it immediately and efficiently. Sam and Dean's main way of coping with the horrors they've witnessed is having a healthy sense of humor, usually directed at each other. Sam's humor is mostly sarcastic and somewhat childish – pranks such as gluing Dean's hand to his beer bottle crack him up.
Jessica's murder brought, in addition to the obvious horror and regression to hunting, a new dimension of horror into Sam's life – shortly before her death he began having nightmares about her very murder which then played out before his eyes. Sam blamed himself for not believing his vision – not standing by her side when she needed him to protect her. For that reason he also became deeply obsessed with those visions – desperate to save whoever they showed him, desperate to avoid another repeat of Jessica. These visions led him to Max – a boy who shared a different version of his own story – his mother was murdered by the yellow eyed demon in his nursery at the age of 6 months after he was given demon's blood – although of that detail he was yet unaware – and had gained psychic abilities due to it that began exactly when Sam's visions had. The encounter with Max terrified and shocked Sam, and his obsession and fear of his own abilities grew tremendously because Max had taken his own abilities to the darkest of places and Sam was horrified of ending up the same way. He desperately tried to save Max partly because his moral code wouldn't let him abandon a human being – Sam came back into hunting after a break of two years which he had spent in a normal surrounding; that and his natural aversion to the hunter's lifestyle made him much softer than most hunters – more humane - and partly because if he saw Max as a monster, he had to see himself as a monster and he needed to believe that he could be saved, that he could be a hero and not a monster.
At the end of season one, the Winchesters believed they closed in on the yellow eyed demon, and Sam believed that his life as a hunter was approaching its end ("Dean, we are a family. I'd do anything for you. But things will never be the way they were before….I don't want them to be. I'm not gonna live this life forever. Dean when this is all over, you're gonna have to let me go my own way." –season 1 episode 16), but as they closed in on him later (shortly after my chosen canon point, but it demonstrates the depth of Sam's desperation) Dean had to physically restrain Sam from running into a burning building and committing suicide in an attempt to kill the demon. Sam's obsession with killing the demon outweighed any form of reason in his mind. At that point however Dean managed to get through to him and when the demon possessed their father Sam didn't shoot him despite the fact the man had begged him to because he had come around to Dean's point of view – that there was something more important than revenge – and that was family. Dean is the one man capable of bringing Sam back from his own inner darkness, but even he is faced with much resistance from Sam; the younger Winchester always struggled with keeping his horrors to himself, only divulging them to his brother when he had absolutely no other choice.
Sam is methodical and organized, both traits that help him immensely with his research. That point is best demonstrated in episode 3x11 because he was left on his own; his organization is usually lost behind Dean's clutter otherwise. In that episode, Sam spends his days running down every possible lead one by one. He remembers every little supposedly insignificant detail in the time loop he was trapped in from the exact words Dean used to taunt him to the flavor of syrup the man at the bar puts on his pancakes. When he was pulled out of the loop into a life without Dean, Sam's life narrowed into a methodical hunt in which there was no room for social connections or distractions. His motel rooms were meticulous, clean and organized, and so was the arsenal in his trunk. Sam is very jealous of his privacy, his few possessions and their organization; he and Dean share everything but he cannot stand it when his brother's mess invades his personal space.
Abilities/Powers: Supernaturally speaking, when Sam was 6 months old he was given demon's blood, which enables him to access some psychic abilities. At this point in canon all he´s able to do is be the passive receiver of futuristic visions concerning the demon whose blood he drank, or more precisely, his victims, and once he was able to telekinetically move a closet that had him locked in, however that has been a very desperate situation and although he found himself in plenty of other desperate situations since, he has never been able to recreate that feat. The demon's blood also made him immune to the psychic attacks of demons and other people who were given demon's blood like himself, and able to perceive the presence of other supernatural entities like ghosts and poltergeists at times. Later in canon he learns to do many other things but they are connected to the consumption of more demon's blood which shouldn't be of importance in game however to detail it- he became able to exorcise and even kill demons with his mind, as well as amplify his telekinetic abilities.
Naturally speaking, Sam was raised as a hunter. He´s learned how to defend himself probably since he was old enough to walk, in a range of techniques from empty hand combat to the handling of fire arms and a verity of cold weapons; knives, axes, ect. After rejoining the family business with his brother Dean, Sam improved those skills greatly; the first half of season 1 is mostly made out of Sam getting caught and Dean rescuing him, but with time he improves and even saves Dean a few times. These skills include Latin spells, the painting of Devil's Traps and the use of talismans, however they are all a matter of knowledge rather than supernatural ability – anyone can learn to use them; Sam simply has a few memorized, mostly the devil's trap and exorcism spells.
Hunting however requires more than mere fighting skills, therefore Sam is also an expert tracker and researcher. It usually falls on him, especially at the beginning of canon, to find jobs and discover which monster lurked in the dark. In addition, hunters of the supernatural play a double role of both hunters and prey- to the very things they hunt, to law enforcers, and at times even to other hunters, therefore Sam has also learned how to make himself scarce. He´s an excellent hacker, he knows how to commit credit card frauds to procure finances, how to fake ids, how to break and enter, pick locks and so on and so forth. And of course, Sam is an extraordinary liar, passing himself as a priest, FBI agent, or whatever the job requires him to be.
Performing some basic medical procedures is also crucial knowledge for hunters; sanitation, pulling bullets out of wounds, sewing wounds, applied pressure in the right spots, bandaging, and all forms of first aid.
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Sample Entry Two:
Sam didn't remember falling asleep, and that was enough to sound the alarm in his head. And speaking of his head, it felt like it was about to explode. Could it be a side effect of the Shtriga's attack? It did drain some of his 'life force', so maybe he should have expected this…did he faint? His hand reached up to rub his temples and pinch the bridge of his nose. A deep breath, and another…this wasn't working, he needed an aspirin.
"Dean?" He croaked out, his eyes still shut, expecting his brother to be somewhere around. When moments passed with no reply, annoyance struck roots in his mind. If he left him at some motel to suffer through this on his own so he could go out and get laid there will be a bitchy hell to pay. "Dean?" he tried again, pulling himself upwards, his eyes fluttering open.
What he saw before him made him jump upright in bed. What the hell is this. This wasn't like any motel he and Dean ever crashed at; for one there were way too many damn beds. They always got private rooms, in their line of work privacy's a necessity, they don't even let the maids go in their rooms, so the last thing they'll ever do is rent a place with four other people! There had to be an explanation for this, and when your last name is Winchester that explanation could be either of the following two – 1. Dean thinks he's funny again. 2. Something evil is going on.
He jumped off his bed, ignoring the constant thumping of his brain complaining about having to function in these conditions, and made his way to the nearest bed. The man lying in it was unfamiliar to him, and as far as he knew Dean had no friends to call on to prank him. Even if he did go to the trouble of speaking to men outside the hunting game, he definitely wouldn't make a good enough impression to convince them to help him with this. No, this was way too elaborate to be one of Dean's schemes, the guy is a jerk but he's not that creative – if he woke up bald or itching he could blame his brother but as it stands – it seemed about time to get really worried. So the reasonable conclusion seemed to be that these other people were brought here just like himself. Are they captive? Can they leave? And where the hell is Dean – was he somewhere out there or was he tearing up a town trying to find him? First thing first, he had to ascertain these people's condition, so he leaned down over the bed and placed his hand on the shoulder of the man occupying it, shaking him lightly.
"Hey – wake up – are you ok?"